Day Eight - Waiting Game

Today wasn't bad like I had read about. I wonder if I will go through a second round of detox. It's not that I think I am truly cleansed or anything, but my tongue has started to become mostly pink again.

I feel like I'm straddling the fence right now about what to do if a second round of the cleanse doesn't begin before day 10. On the one hand, I want everything bad OUT. That was the whole point of this, and if I've come this far, then what's a few more days? On the other hand, I'm bored with drinking this stuff. I'm hungry. It's difficult to concentrate, and I tire easily. I signed up for this Master Cleanse support forum at some point today just to inquire about the process and some dude told me that I shouldn't expect to expel black solids in such a short amount of time. I mean.... who is that guy to tell me, I know. But at the same time it's just something to take into consideration. Maybe I won't cleanse as cleanly as I originally thought. It certainly doesn't mean I haven't been cleansing all week. Believe me, I have.

I'm starting work on Thursday and I'm not sure how it'll go. I've read about people exercising while on the cleanse, so it's not like I think I will pass out or anything, but it can be a lot of running around and stress. Also, to be around that much food and still fully be fasting sounds... miserable. At this point, I cannot imagine doing this for very much longer knowing I'm going to be physically touching baked potatoes and stuffing them with cheese, butter, bacon bits, sour cream and chives and then hand delivering it to someone with a smile on my face. The thought alone just made my stomach rumble. Shit you not. It's literally like dangling a t-bone in front of a dog and not letting her have it. It's going to be torture the first few day regardless though since I'm supposed to stick to juice the first day and fruits the second day. Ughhhh. I'm dreading it.

Clearly, 90 percent of what I'm going through right now is mental. Must find a way to power through the negativity. It would help if the sun would come out again.